When I was young I believe and remember that I was taken to a witch-doctor by someone I love and care about. I was at a young and tender age, where I had not the age and maturity to question that decision. I was like a lamb being taken to the slaughter house. I have long since forgiven the person who did this but that occasion has been a cause for many tears and troubles. A cause for doubt and unbelief. A cause for fear and trembling. On many occasions I have felt estranged from God. I felt that perhaps my soul was sold to the devil. Perhaps God cannot accept me. Perhaps I was made to make a covenant with the devil that has never been broken and which I have not the knowledge to break. Perhaps I took upon myself a curse.
Now, it is in not in my forte to know how the devil works and what happens in the dark world. However I do know for sure that what happened was not good in the sight of God. I do know it may result in many complications and it may kindle the wrath of God. I cannot say for a fact that it was the genesis of my many struggles but I do suspect that it has a little to do with the trajectory of my life. And so for a long time I have struggled. My faith has been tested to the utmost and the fear that I am lost to God has engulfed me. I have pleaded with God to forgive the deed and to deliver me from the powers of darkness. I have sought God with all my heart, mind, soul and strength.
Through it all I have struggled with questions begging day and night for answers. Why did it have to happen? Why is my life so complicated? Why is the enemy attacking me? Where is God in this dark and gloomy picture? Am I lost to God? I still have not found answers to these questions, but everyday a little glimmer of hope shines in my soul. God loves me perhaps, God still cares perhaps. He may be seeking for my soul and searching for me. Drawing me closer and closer to Him as the days go by. How can I be lost yet He says I am saved by grace through faith. How can I be lost yet there is a savior who is well able to lose me from the powers of darkness. How can I be lost yet God created and redeemed me. He saw it fit that I exist in this day and age. He saw it fit that I live to glorify Him. He alone had a purpose for my existence.
And so away with the doubt, the fear, the shame and unbelief. Away with the whispers of the enemy telling me I may be lost to God. Hush and get behind me Satan. I shall live to see another day. For my redeemer lives. I shall live to His glory alone and all shall be well in Jesus name. I may be troubled on every side, yet not distressed; I may be perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed. Through it all I believe that my light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for me a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory.
And so friends, you may have walked a mile in my shoes. Your story may have a similitude to mine. Like me, you may think yourself to be in the hands of the enemy, under the powers of darkness. But God. God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us of all our unrighteousness. God is mighty to save. God loves us with an everlasting love.
Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, for thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Therefore, be of good cheer. In a little while…….